Archives for July 2013

Checking Out Bloglovin’

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Checking out the hype that is Bloglovin’

So far, so awesome!

Today I am…Blogging Along with Effy Wild!

Yay, I’m so in!

My favorite art goddess, Effy Wild, is going to be blogging daily in August & I’m going to join her!
I’ll be blogging about anything & everything: books, art, scrapbooking, teaching 8th grade monsters, this crazy baby chase, & who knows what else…(Sharknado, anyone)!

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I’m not (that) broken…

097 Infertility sucks.

 

That’s putting it nicely. When your body refuses to do its job, it is hard to deal with. I’m a woman, I’m supposed to make babies. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to throw my gender back to the dark ages, promise! It’s just what I want, more than anything in this world. I want to be a mommy. A Mommy. I was pregnant once, for fourteen beautiful weeks, with sweet baby Hope. It almost happened.

Quite often, I just feel broken. There’s a meme for this…YOU HAD ONE JOB! Sometimes I yell this at myself. Hey, uterus, YOU HAD ONE JOB! You, too, ovaries: ONE JOB! And the kicker is, I can’t fire them and hire parts that work. It is maddening.

We are seeing a specialist. We did IUI. I’ve lost 22 pounds since May. I’m eating healthy. I gave up Diet Coke and Diet Dr. Pepper. Sometimes I have dreams about DDP. They are glorious! I’m down to one cup of coffee a day. I’m taking a fist full of meds several times a day that make me hot and emotional. Now I’m sweaty and I cry a lot at things that are completely ridiculous (like there aren’t any napkins or that the cat won’t sleep with me). Poor Schmoopy! That man is a saint!

My story isn’t unique. It’s actually quite common. That’s why I am sharing. So many people have, as politely as possible, questioned me as to why I’m putting all of my secrets out there so publicly. Actually, I’m quite an Instagram junkie (@ohmandee) and I’ve been recording this struggle under the hashtag #gethealthygetbaby. I’m sharing because I need to. I’m sharing because I keep getting emails from beautiful, amazing, brilliant women who are going through this horrible thing, too. I’m not alone. We’re not alone. So many women tell me they are ashamed that they can’t get pregnant or stay pregnant. I get that. I’m not writing this to complain, either. I’m thankful for these medicines and procedures. I’m thankful that I even have a chance of getting pregnant.

I’m writing this because I’m not broken and neither are you. We’re  just who we’re supposed to be, actually. Psalm 139:14 “I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.”

Whatever your struggle is, know that you are not broken. You are just what you are supposed to be. If you want to change something, change it. Become that beautiful, amazing anything you want to be. It isn’t easy, it doesn’t always work, but you have every reason to go for it.I have beautiful, amazing friends who remind me of this daily. They are true blessings to me. I pray that all of you have such friends.

This was quite rambling, I know. But my heart tells me that it needed to be shared.

Take care of you, please, you are so loved! xo

Making Beautiful Messes!

I am indulging my creative self this summer! It is so beautiful and messy and just AWESOME!
I’m taking some art classes, learning how to bind books, drawing, scrapbooking, creating insane collages, painting, and making friends with colors!

Look what I made! 

Check out my beautiful muses, I know you’ll love them, too! 

So in love with Effy Wild!  She is my artistic hero! I’m doing her Book of Days and Bookbinding 101 classes. Heavenly! I just love the art and therapy and wisdom she gently places in my heart. Also the glitter flinging! It is just…RIGHT!

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Christy Tomlinson, oh man! I can’t even describe her kind of awesome! I’m doing her Behind the Art class to learn about supplies, backgrounds, and colors. She makes it look effortless. I am making so many happy mistakes and just going for it!

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Tamara Laporte, the force behind Willowing Arts is amazing! I finally signed up for her  Life Book 2013: Late to the party, but jumped in full force! I’m in heaven!

Kristin Tweedale of RuKristin is a rockstar! I took her Fold It In! class and made a million albums that I adore. She is running a wicked cool FREE summer class right now, Find Your Voice. It is all about discovering your storytelling voice. I’m so loving it!

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I also joined in an art swap hosted by super creative and talented Sandra Kaye. I figured swapping would inspire me and get my booty in creative mode!

Of course, I’m stalking some awesome blogs, too!
Donna Downey…so in love with her Inspiration Wednesday posts. So much technique filled awesomeness!

I’m making stuff, messing up, gluing, painting, experimenting with color, & screaming DO OVER a lot! And I LOVE IT!
And, because I’m a book girl, I’m also reading these awesome books:

Art Journal Freedom by Dina Wakely…she is awesome!

Inner Excavation: Exploring Your Self  Through Photography, Poetry and Mixed Media by Liz Lamoreux. She has a book study on her blog & Effy Wild is doing one in The Glitterhood, too! Awesomeness!

Art is my new happy place! What’s your happy place?